[CFUD: Backdated again]

[boundbydevotion]

[SO ANYWAY, BACK IN JULY, LINK DECIDED HE WAS IGNORING ALLEN BECAUSE ALLEN IS DUMB. And then it continued for a week mostly because he was awkward and doesn't know how to apologize for getting mad...]

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[allmadeofstars]

. . .



[starting to panic, trying not to show it]

Hey—don't do that. It really was—I'm sorry—please look at me—

[boundbydevotion]

[Does, but the look is really kind of anxious, probably more than Allen is used to seeing, since most of the time he's either composed or some variation of irate.

Just standing there, quiet, arms held stiffly at his sides and breath coming a bit short]

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

[takes a step back. then another]

I'm sorry.

I won't—

[boundbydevotion]

Wait.

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

[stops]

[boundbydevotion]

Don't stop... thinking of what you want. That is important to me.

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

Link—

[hesitates, breathing in a little shakily]

. . . Link . . .

[boundbydevotion]

And being honest with me. I wanted that.

[allmadeofstars]

No, I—

[. . . :x]

[boundbydevotion]

I need... patience, but I don't need you to put my every feeling first. I need balance between what you want and what I want, not.. retreating and running away. I want to be friends.

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

[covers her mouth with both hands and just]

[nods helplessly, almost frantically]

[boundbydevotion]

I can't address the rest of your feelings about me right now...

[allmadeofstars]

N-no! No! That's—not important! That's not important at all! You keep—assuming that there are . . . things—when there aren't! I just—I just want to be friends. I want you by my side. I selfishly want—. . . that. That's all.

I want to do everything I can to make you happy—I want to see you smile. I want that . . . more than anything right now.

[boundbydevotion]

[. . .]

That is still more than I can deal with at once, Walker. I don't want you to base all of your own happiness on mine.

[allmadeofstars]

[h-huffs]

I didn't say that at all! And you're—saying you want me to be honest, but if I even start, then you . . .

[boundbydevotion]

Then please be more clear. I am aware my response is not always the most ideal but I don't want you to feel as if you can't... just tell me. It is a symptom that you are not secure about my resolve to stay friends.

[allmadeofstars]

It's not—

. . .

It's not that I doubt you . . .

[boundbydevotion]

It's that you are undeserving or any other number if ridiculous reasons?

[allmadeofstars]

S-says the person who thinks he's not good for me!

[boundbydevotion]

[arm cross] I do not think of it as a reflection of my worth whether or not it would be good for you.

[allmadeofstars]

. . . I'm trying.

[boundbydevotion]

In any case, please finish your previous thought. If there is an issue with how I am behaving when you try to be honest I will endeavor to correct it.

[allmadeofstars]

N-no. It's . . . not you.

[boundbydevotion]

I can certainly correct you as well if there is a need.

[allmadeofstars]

[m-makes a . . . face . . .!?]

That's—you don't need to—hey . . .