At this point Link is pretty sure about how he feels about Allen, which is basically IN LOEV FOREVARS. Like, even before the shadow game he was aware of this. The thing is that he has promised himself that he wouldn't make Allen's life more complicated than it has to be (at least on purpose), and has decided that his primary purpose is just to support Allen however Allen needs it. So even if he does feel FEELINGS for Allen he's pretty resistant to saying anything about it at the moment because, from Link's perspective, he doesn't think that Allen is really interested in him as more than a friend. Though he's aware Allen does think it's okay to have that kind of intimacy with close friends because CROSS.
But anyway, he honestly doesn't believe Allen can or should put him first (though the selfish part of him would really like that). He figures Allen struggles enough for other peoples' attention and love and happiness that he shouldn't have to work so hard for Link's. But he also kind of thinks that it's natural for Allen to value the things he knows he earned a little more. So basically Allen can FIGHT HARD for the things he wants and Link will just be that place of rest when the fighting gets too difficult. And in Link's idea of how Allen works this puts him in a place that just isn't as prominent in Allen's thoughts (below boyfriendos and probably teammates). It also means Link has difficulty justifying demanding anything from Allen because it's his (self-appointed) place to give, not to ask... unless Allen wants him to, in which case he would do so happily. But Allen would have to want him to ask for the right reasons, not because he felt bad for Link or needs to feel useful to him somehow or something dumb like that. He refuses to let Allen think his love has to be earned to be kept because that defeats the purpose of him being someone Allen can relax with. WHICH IS WHY LINK IS SAYING NOTHING. At least for now...
He's having some TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES because he REALLY REALLY LOVES ALLEN and it's difficult to tell himself no, or to not be horribly mushy, and also he's better at being honest and direct, so it's an EFFORT not to say what he feels and accidentally sway Allen's judgment or something. Or smother him. As a result he goes between REALLY AWKWARD AND FORCED to derederederelovedere a lot... Also self-denial is making him little jealous which he isn't sure how to address.
THAT WAS A LOT OF UNCLEAR WORDS. Here, this is clearer: Link loves Allen --> Allen thinks of Link as a friend --> But Allen would do anything for his friends --> Link refuses to take advantage, instead preferring to wait until Allen is sure he has THOSE kinds of feelings about Link --> UST ABOUNDS BECAUSE NO ONE SAYS ANYTHING
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At this point Link is pretty sure about how he feels about Allen, which is basically IN LOEV FOREVARS. Like, even before the shadow game he was aware of this. The thing is that he has promised himself that he wouldn't make Allen's life more complicated than it has to be (at least on purpose), and has decided that his primary purpose is just to support Allen however Allen needs it. So even if he does feel FEELINGS for Allen he's pretty resistant to saying anything about it at the moment because, from Link's perspective, he doesn't think that Allen is really interested in him as more than a friend. Though he's aware Allen does think it's okay to have that kind of intimacy with close friends because CROSS.
But anyway, he honestly doesn't believe Allen can or should put him first (though the selfish part of him would really like that). He figures Allen struggles enough for other peoples' attention and love and happiness that he shouldn't have to work so hard for Link's. But he also kind of thinks that it's natural for Allen to value the things he knows he earned a little more. So basically Allen can FIGHT HARD for the things he wants and Link will just be that place of rest when the fighting gets too difficult. And in Link's idea of how Allen works this puts him in a place that just isn't as prominent in Allen's thoughts (below boyfriendos and probably teammates). It also means Link has difficulty justifying demanding anything from Allen because it's his (self-appointed) place to give, not to ask... unless Allen wants him to, in which case he would do so happily. But Allen would have to want him to ask for the right reasons, not because he felt bad for Link or needs to feel useful to him somehow or something dumb like that. He refuses to let Allen think his love has to be earned to be kept because that defeats the purpose of him being someone Allen can relax with. WHICH IS WHY LINK IS SAYING NOTHING. At least for now...
He's having some TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES because he REALLY REALLY LOVES ALLEN and it's difficult to tell himself no, or to not be horribly mushy, and also he's better at being honest and direct, so it's an EFFORT not to say what he feels and accidentally sway Allen's judgment or something. Or smother him. As a result he goes between REALLY AWKWARD AND FORCED to derederederelovedere a lot... Also self-denial is making him little jealous which he isn't sure how to address.
THAT WAS A LOT OF UNCLEAR WORDS. Here, this is clearer: Link loves Allen --> Allen thinks of Link as a friend --> But Allen would do anything for his friends --> Link refuses to take advantage, instead preferring to wait until Allen is sure he has THOSE kinds of feelings about Link --> UST ABOUNDS BECAUSE NO ONE SAYS ANYTHING