[CFUD: Backdated again]

[boundbydevotion]

[SO ANYWAY, BACK IN JULY, LINK DECIDED HE WAS IGNORING ALLEN BECAUSE ALLEN IS DUMB. And then it continued for a week mostly because he was awkward and doesn't know how to apologize for getting mad...]

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[boundbydevotion]

[Suddenly shoves her arm's-length away from himself]

[allmadeofstars]

[. . . laughs a little]

I was joking! . . . mostly. Sort of.

[boundbydevotion]

Please have some modesty!

[allmadeofstars]

It's just me though . . .

[boundbydevotion]

Do not grope--[jdksdhfs, just... putting some room between them]

[allmadeofstars]

[huff]

If I'm a girl, I'm indecent; if I'm normal, I'm sinning. Really . . .

[boundbydevotion]

[lineface, glaring at the floor...]

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

Ahhh, sorry. That was out of line.

[boundbydevotion]

[shakes his head]

[allmadeofstars]

. . .



[starting to panic, trying not to show it]

Hey—don't do that. It really was—I'm sorry—please look at me—

[boundbydevotion]

[Does, but the look is really kind of anxious, probably more than Allen is used to seeing, since most of the time he's either composed or some variation of irate.

Just standing there, quiet, arms held stiffly at his sides and breath coming a bit short]

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

[takes a step back. then another]

I'm sorry.

I won't—

[boundbydevotion]

Wait.

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

[stops]

[boundbydevotion]

Don't stop... thinking of what you want. That is important to me.

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

Link—

[hesitates, breathing in a little shakily]

. . . Link . . .

[boundbydevotion]

And being honest with me. I wanted that.

[allmadeofstars]

No, I—

[. . . :x]

[boundbydevotion]

I need... patience, but I don't need you to put my every feeling first. I need balance between what you want and what I want, not.. retreating and running away. I want to be friends.

[allmadeofstars]

. . .

[covers her mouth with both hands and just]

[nods helplessly, almost frantically]

[boundbydevotion]

I can't address the rest of your feelings about me right now...

[allmadeofstars]

N-no! No! That's—not important! That's not important at all! You keep—assuming that there are . . . things—when there aren't! I just—I just want to be friends. I want you by my side. I selfishly want—. . . that. That's all.

I want to do everything I can to make you happy—I want to see you smile. I want that . . . more than anything right now.

[boundbydevotion]

[. . .]

That is still more than I can deal with at once, Walker. I don't want you to base all of your own happiness on mine.

[allmadeofstars]

[h-huffs]

I didn't say that at all! And you're—saying you want me to be honest, but if I even start, then you . . .

[boundbydevotion]

Then please be more clear. I am aware my response is not always the most ideal but I don't want you to feel as if you can't... just tell me. It is a symptom that you are not secure about my resolve to stay friends.